| Thursday, May 12, 2005 |
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lost 3-2 to RJ. this marks the end of the season. but is was a really really good fight...rj has 3 combined sch players n we have none. yet we fought hard n almost won. nothing is impossible. way to go vjtt!! :) i am soo gonna miss trainings....the kind of bond u share with ur teammates are really special..they are the ones hu wld understand, cheer n cry with u when u win or lose the match. vjtt's spirit is really strong. really really strong. one reason why i wld wanna stay in vj is cos of the team. we fight as a team, not for ourselves. "persevere, turn the tables, be the winner"--this phrase was created since last year's hc's match when we were down 2-0 but won with the score of 3-2 in the end. :) wad mr wee said was right. it is not the result that matters. it is the spirit that we had---the 'never-say-die' spirit. it is this spirit that wld be with us for the rest of our lives. not the medals. of cos i felt guilty when i lost the match cos i was supposed to win. my coach felt that i had the highest chance. n i was leading by 1 set. but well, is ok. ultimately the opponent is a much better player than me n through this, i learn that there is no such thing as 'sure lose' there is always hope. sad to say, this is probably the last match i wld ever play in my entire life. i wld nv ever ever forget the moments we had, the anxiety, the stress, the sorrow n the happiness we shared. i really hope that time wld stop sometimes. :( i wld miss trainings. this is exactly how i felt in cedar. i am lucky to have 2 great united teams. vjtt, rock on :) |
| Friday, May 06, 2005 |
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so we are into the finals on 10/5/05 dun deny that we are at a big big disadvantage but we wld still fight hard...ultimately we have reached our aim so yeah...no regrets :) read hwee's blogs..i agree with her..i miss my sec sch days lyk hell....things were much simpler then..life was much easier and happier...there was so much less stress!! i even miss my pri sch frens though i hardly contact them now..kinda regret it.. i even miss my training days back in cedar...i remembered how much time i spent thanks to trainings...there were NV half days for us...but now i really miss it...i miss the fun n laughter we used to have...i remembered the stress n tension we had to face every year n the tears we shared. i miss my teacher in charge..the comments he told us wld forever be in my mind..i remembered how he scolded me infront of the whole team juz because i did not think before i serve. i remembered how he always told us that mental strength is vital n how to improve on it. i used to hate him but now i appreciate all the things he had done for us. he is such a gd teacher. cos without his valuable advice, i dun tink i can be as strong as compared to the past. friendships can be so vulnerable. u can be frens for a long long time but it juz needs one incident to change the whole situation. is it worth it? is it worth losing such a gd fren over such a small matter? if i were u, i wld nv ever let this happen. its really sad sometimes i really dunno wad i want. i really wanna let go but there is this part of me that is holding me back. i am in such a dilema. life can be really simple yet complicating. |